Dealing with Angst

Anil Mitra January 1, 2020—January 21, 2020

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Contents
(Entries are Links to Headings)

About this article

Ultimately its about me

I must take responsibility

Change and others

The mechanism

But there’s more… about the negative self-image

Absolute or relative to an ideal?

What is the source of the image?

How to deal

Introduction

Meditate

Shamatha

Vipasana

Exploration of self and ‘Being’

Spot meditation

Attitude

In the moment

Always

Translate practice to action

Take care of my life

Write

Exercise

Community

Therapy

Refresh, seek healthy contacts

The ways—a project

 

Dealing with Angst
Especially Interpersonal and General Self-Image

About this article

1.     The purpose is to move from negative to positive—(i) in its source in my person and (ii) the moment.

2.     The article is in-process and needs review, revision, and editing.

Ultimately its about me

I must take responsibility

I must take responsibility, realize I must change—internally and externally, and take action to change.

Change and others

It does not mean others cannot be changed but (i) the means of changing others is to change myself and how I see things, (ii) to talk to others about how I see and would like things, (iii) I cannot expect them to change or demand change, and so (iv) I will need to make the internal and external changes.

The mechanism

The following cycle may begin at any one of the places in it.

Tension and predisposition to self doubt and negative self image ® conflate the tension with self doubt and negative self image ® feedback and escalation (of doubt, negative feeling, and tension).

But there’s more… about the negative self-image

But why this negative self-image?

Absolute or relative to an ideal?

Is it an absolute thing in itself; or is it relative—i.e., relative to some ideal image of myself as perfect in some ways and independent of what others think (that is, perhaps the self-image is normative but I idealize it as dependent only on my thought and feeling).

What is the source of the image?

If it is about an ideal image, what is the source of the image? Review my life: birth > childhood and home > school, failure, success; and sport > college, youth, friends, and marriage > research, teaching, and the world of ideas | nature and inspiration > discovery of metaphysics > work at mental health > alcohol > retirement.

How to deal

Introduction

The direct address of angst is not to be seen as distinct from living and general process and realization.

These ways are ordered according to

1.     Immediacy,

2.     Personal vs community, and

3.     Projects are at the end.

4.     Note that the arrangement does not imply order of use or importance.

Meditate

Allow pure tension and recognize that its just tension, and quieting; attitude; and analytical meditation (vipasana) seeing truth—using all sides of mind, analyzing my mental state, its dependence vs independence of others (normativity; see where I may have over-idealized ‘self’); seeing Atman = Brahman.

Shamatha

Vipasana

Exploration of self and ‘Being’

Spot meditation

General.

For sleep; and to sleep.

Attitude

In the moment

Bringing myself away from concern with ‘lesser self’ into the real.

Always

Sharing, doing for others, non avoidance of others, be aware of my effect on others, be aware of – anticipate – and deal with triggers of angst. Engage with awareness.

Translate practice to action

Practice to action.

Take care of my life

Realization (writing, yogic, the phases), support, healthy living (diet, physical activity, rest).

Write

Write—to externalize, but don’t overdo writing.

Exercise

Aerobic, postural, stretching—in nature.

Community

Seek Sangha, speak carefully, avoid toxic contacts.

Therapy

Therapy might be useful. What kind of therapist? What are the community resources?

Refresh, seek healthy contacts

Move, trips and travel.

The ways—a project

Look into the ways and catalysts of Buddhism, Yoga, the Gita, Beyul, Christian Mysticism, and more.

Refine my awareness and practice of the ways—see dynamics, catalysts and catalytic states.